I lie in bed, and the shivers start spreading within my body grasping my happiness from the inside out…. It consumes me, and tears me apart… my hands start shaking and I have a tingling sensation in my throat…. I wait for the tears to start, but nothing comes out and I lie on my back not knowing why… My head goes blank and I can’t stop shaking… I swallow hard and take a deep breath but it won’t go away… that feeling of despair, of deseption, of hurt, of anger, of sadness, of confusion… my thoughts don’t connect… I know how I feel but I can’t find the words to show my cloud of emotions, that now envade my body, my soul, my being… so I stay quiet as goosebumps begin spreading all over my trembling body from the cold when just moments ago I felt fine…. I stand up and it’s as if gravity takes its course on my tears… I cried with so much resentment as I let the cloud of emotions escape my body through my sorrow